Thursday, September 30, 2010

Am I really cut out for this parenting thing?

I am constantly asking myself this question. When tough situations arise, I think "I do not know what I am doing. Who entrusted me with real live human beings?".

As Austin gets older, the problems get more complex and come with more serious consequences.
He does not get the significance of doing well in school. He is a 14 (almost 15) year old young man who lives in the moment and does not think about what actions he takes today could affect his road to the future. I hear myself saying "If I would've known then what I know now...".

I make it sound like he is doing terrible. He's not. He is only having problems with his Earth & Space Science class. I am not sure if he really doesn't understand the material, or he doesn't like the teacher. Regardless, he is going to have to adapt.
I can not express to him how much this concerns me without sounding like a nag. Our conversations usually start out civilized and then end up with either or I or both of us crying.

It is so hard for me to watch him struggle. The things I do for him, I wish my Mom had done for me. She knew the importance of letting me learn from my own mistakes, but I don't want him to make the same mistakes I did.

I have been praying about him a lot. I want him to develop a desire to want to do the best, to be the best. I want him to be comfortable in his own shoes.
What happened to my little boy? He's still here, just in a size 10.

2009-2010 - 8th Grade - Still a boy.

What a difference a year makes.

Wow. When did this happen? I guess when I wasn't looking.

1 comment:

Anonymous said...

I know exactly how you feel! My son will be 18 and he lives in the moment and doesn't appreciate the things his stepfather and I do for him. We lecture him about life and the decisions he makes until we are blue in the face. He has ALWAYS struggled in school. He barely passes each grade. God willing he will graduate in May. I seriously don't know what to do anymore. All he does is social media and hang out with his girlfriend. Kids these dAys have been ruined by all this technolgy! They don't have ambition or drive to do their best. They just fly by the seat of their pants! Ugh! Hang in there, I'm sure you are doing great and just keep praying. I also have a 4 year old going on 15. I don't think I was cut out to be a parent cause seriously I have no clue what I'm doing and I have very little patience. God Bless!